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In God’s Hands; Casting My Anxiety to the Almighty

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Written by Brandy Hynes

 

There was a knot in his cord.

 

It was my third baby, a baby boy. So many others were also pregnant; my best friend, sister-in-law, cousins. All due in the 6 weeks before me. It was exciting to think of us all having little ones the same age, but anxiety overcame me. What if ours didn’t make it? What if something happened to my baby and I had to watch all these other babies grow up? I worried during the whole pregnancy that I would lose my little boy at the end. I prayed that the Lord wouldn’t make me walk through that storm. I just couldn’t bear it. Please Lord, not that.

 

One by one, our family and friends welcomed their precious babies. Then our day came. Everything seemed fine, and for the most part I wasn’t overly anxious at that point. I had delivered two babies easily and didn’t expect this to go any differently. I felt that we were in good hands in the hospital. We were.

 

Contractions came closer and the baby’s heartbeat began to drop. The nurses began monitoring him internally. His oxygen levels were low. I panicked. Were these my worst fears coming true? Then, my oxygen levels started dropping. An oxygen mask was placed on my face and I could hear the nurses talking to each other about the situation. The cause was unknown. I didn’t catch everything that was said, but I could tell it sounded heavy. My contractions were coming faster and I felt myself fading. Oh Lord, please don’t take my boy. I can’t go through that.

 

At that moment, the nurse climbed up onto the bed and turned my tear filled eyes towards her, “You and your baby will be fine. Stay with me! We are going to get through this.”  The Lord seemed to be speaking directly through her as an indescribable peace washed over me. I didn’t know what was going to happen, but I knew…

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Meet Brandy

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Brandy is married to the funniest guy she’s ever met.  Together they live the adventure of raising and homeschooling six rambunctious blessings. She is exhausted, but passionate about walking, redeemed, in a relationship with Jesus and encouraging other women to do the same. As a ministry leader, mom, wife, and friend, Brandy feels called to ignite a fiery faith in those around her to answer the call the Lord has on their life. You can find her stringing words together for the Lord at her blog brandyhynes.com where she writes about her big family, big faith, and their recent move to the Big Island of Hawaii.

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